Atheist or other what do you think? warning this is long!?

The Ministry of Truth: my testimony, i was Agnostic until 2005 when God revealed himself to me in my mind and heart. I went to church to find out answers and that day I got them. I am open minded and know the agitation this subject can cause, but know this, if I could of looked into the future at myself now before I gave my life to Jesus I would have called myself a brainwashed retard (some may still call me that but oh well that's life lol) so please open your minds as well, but its true that evil can blind you so badly that you can lie to yourself without knowing it. Most Atheist or other seem to want proof of God before they would consider believing, or if God was so loving why would He send us to hell. there are so many questions but who has the right answers. please to all who are sceptical, think about this... does it not take more faith to believe we were all an accident, or sludge that evolved along with everything on and in this planet and universe, then it is to believe that there is a mighty God that created it all? look at the world around you for proof how the animals live that don't need stores to survive, the plants that adapt to their surroundings... they have no brain to choose to evolve, how our bodies work, what keeps your heart beating what created the sensation of taste when you put anything up to your tongue, all the different sounds that come from different things... can they just create themselves? how does sound evolve? I came to realize that God is a lot like gravity, you can say in your heart that it is me that holds myself to the ground nothing else... but in the end you find out that it was the power and law of gravity that held you to the ground this whole time. I found that God cant be rationalized in our way of thinking because He is outside our realm of time and is so powerful that He just always was and is and is to come like the infinite sign ∞. why should we expect God to display and show us more proof He already sent His son Jesus 2000 + years ago and He displayed miracles and still there were those who seen and chose not to believe. you have all these different religions I believe to be lies and deceptions created by satan... look at most religions, they branched off of the holy bible because someone had an issue with the holy bible they did not agree with, look it up. and who is the most controversial God out there, you see Jesus in the news or on tabloids all the time, and when you curse whose name is it? you never say Buddha #amn it. satan knows the power of the name of Jesus, and if satan can get you to believe in other religions or nothing at all even the belief in a literal hell he has won what he is doing. I type this letter to all of you not to scare you in any way, but to ask you to search... because if your wrong and the Holy Bible is right then there are no do overs once dead. its says hell is a place of eternal torment, weeping and gnashing of teeth. and hell was made for satan and his followers not for us, God gave us the choice to choose for a reason and purpose, and only God knows that answer and has all right. He doesn't have to explain himself he set the evidence out there. God made us all and loves us all more then we know and in hell you are separated from the love of God, you know about your previous life in hell and have all senses. There is no scare tactics here I just want to share food for thought, because in the end we all are judged and we all know death is inevitable, and I wish to see you all in heaven because in heaven all tears and memory of evil will be wiped away... and your legend you build for yourself on earth will be forgotten forever. so I came to the conclusion that the average 70+ years of life if you make it that far of sin and life without hope and a savior is but vapor in the wind compared to eternity I hope you soon find the answers like I did because I realized that I'm never going to be perfect but I have a perfect Father in heaven that sent His perfect Son to die in our my places. and Jesus is the bridge that fills the gap between us and the Father because God is holy and pure he can not coexist with sin that we inherited from Adam and Eve after the mistake in the garden of Eden, and that's why His Son paid the penalty... so we can be sinless before God on that day thanks to Jesus. may I see you there in heaven I can only hope and pray Amen....